One day I was called for jury duty. On this particular day, I was one of the “lucky” ones that had to show up to see if we would be selected to serve on a case. After I arrived, the staff gave a group of us questionnaires. One quick look at the questions and it was clear that the case was related to sexual assault.
We answered the questions and waited. Some people were dismissed. I am not sure what was cause for dismissal because I know that the group that remained included people who had been sexually assaulted and people who had good friends or family that had been sexually assaulted. The issue I believe is that almost everyone knew someone who had been through this horrific crime.
They ushered those of us in the jury pool into the courtroom. As soon as they brought the defendant in, tears began streaming down my face. It was automatic and completely outside my control. He was clear across the room from me and was a man whose looks would not have raised an eyebrow – clean-shaven, suit, etc. However, the feeling of guilt permeated the entire room.
When they said that the charge was “sexual assault on a child by a person in a position of trust,” the feeling became even stronger. I was sure that he was guilty of everything he was accused of doing and more.
Fortunately, anyone that even knew someone who had been sexually assaulted was interviewed in private. Now, I was only three feet or so from the defendant and I really wanted to leave. The lawyers on the other hand really wanted me on the jury. They asked me about being a manager and about being logical. In any other situation, I would have said, “Absolutely, I can listen to the facts and make a decision.” However, this case was different. It was hard to make those statements.
Tears kept coming throughout the questioning. Finally, a lawyer asked if I was going to be like that throughout the trial. I simply said, “I don’t know.” With that, I was dismissed.
I sat in my car for several minutes to compose myself enough to drive. Over the next several days, I found myself crying on and off. It took quite some time to get over being in the same space with that man. I can’t imagine how difficult it would have been to sit through the trial.
I do not know the outcome of the trial. But, I am sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was guilty. I had connected to energy that was so strong that it didn’t just give me a feeling of discomfort in my gut as a warning, but shook me to my core. The knowing and gut feel are common for me. However, I am not usually overly emotional. I was feeling a little of his victims’ pain (they never said that there were multiple, but I was sure that this was a pattern of behavior).
This occurred many years ago, but I remember it like it was yesterday. I hope to never experience anything like that again. However, I know that if I should encounter a situation like that again that I could use the many energetic tools I have added to my energetic tool bag over the years to help lessen the impact.
Don’t forget to listen to your gut feel! And, when you get that feeling, use protective energetic boundaries to keep it under control!